I'd like to preface this by saying I spent my youth in a well-to-do family. I'd more opportunity and privilege than most, but the divorce of my parents in my first year of university ultimately drove me to fully take a look at of society.

At first of my crack addiction I swore to myself and to anybody who mentioned the subject that I could not sell sex for money. Unfortunately, I was very naive and uninformed about the progression of addiction and I did so not even know what desperation felt like.

I don't remember my first trick, but I actually do remember many. I have experienced sex with as much as 12 men in a day. The busiest times were early each morning when white men in business suits were on their way to work, or during lunch break when they could sneak off for a quickie.

I started out charging £90-£120 and, since I was pretty enough and still did not look cracked out, I possibly could get that. It was always about the amount of money in my experience and I was always in a rush to get it over with. I spent almost no time talking or even pretending to be thinking about the men. I'm sorry to say that, more often than not I'd unprotected sex, and it is truly by the grace of God I never caught anything.

I am now six years sober and a lot more than the idea of drugs, I am lured to the idea of getting back to prostitution. Something about the idea of a person paying me to possess sex with them turns me on. Instead I have a boring life and a boring job and from time to time to spice things up I tell my husband stories of different clients.

I placed a personal ad with the offer to generally meet a client at a resort for an exclusive lap-dancing session. I have been a dancer for three years, but had started to hate likely to the clubs. I enjoyed the sensuality and intimacy of the work, but hated the crowds, noise and cigarette smoke. The ad stressed that the sessions could be dancing only. I asked that individuals meet first in a public place, for a cocktail or coffee. I phrased this as "us observing each other", but it had been basically to offer my gut an opportunity to tell me whether I could be safe with the person. I was polite, but firm about all my requests. Very several initial responders followed up with me after this, but the people who did sounded respectful and sane.

The initial client I met was a man from out of town. He sounded very nervous in the emails we exchanged, and I wasn't sure he would actually keep consitently the date we made that evening at a good bar.

First thing he explained was he was not likely to go through with our date, but he felt bad about standing me up and would buy me a drink and tip for my time. We had a drink together and I drew him out by what he was looking for. As a dancer, I know lots of ways to create men at their ease and cause them to become open around me.

He explained a familiar story: his wife, whom he referred to as "gorgeous" and who he explained he still loved, was no further enthusiastic about sex. He, of course, still was. I've heard many versions of this story, and it always makes me sad. I haven't any judgment for either person in the partnership, but Personally i think for anybody who would like intimacy and closeness and isn't getting it. I've been there myself.

He explained that I was too young; I was 28 and he was 53. He talked about simply how much he missed touching and holding and taking a look at a woman. We kept speaing frankly about the human importance of intimacy, and I possibly could tell he did want the meeting.